8.28.2006

Posting Delinquency

Sorry, I've been busy and out of town. Last week, I (along with Joe and the rest of our group) did the music at Foundation, a Christian camp for freshmen coming in. It was tiring. We were there from Wednesday afternoon to Saturday afternoon. We played 3 sets a day, and, including practice, we probably played for around 30 hours. It was a lot of fun though. It was weird being "the band" at a pretty large church camp type thing. Everyone thinks you're cool or something, when really you have an engineering degree. Don't tell anyone.

In other news, I am officially the TA for Project Lab II, which, if you knew me in the fall of 2004, you remember how much I complained about that particular lab because it was centered around West Texas BEST, a branch of a national robot-building competition for high school and junior high kids. This year, however, I'm getting paid to do it, so it won't be quite so bad. Class starts tomorrow.

I'll try to post more often once I get rolling this semester.

8.17.2006

Religious Musings, Pt. 2

Alright, so recently I've attempted to explain Christianity to a few people. It is weird how much more difficult it is to someone who doesn't have all of the "Sunday School" background that so many of the people in our little sheltered, Baptist-youth-group lives have had. It turns out it is a huge thing that is difficult to capture in a few minutes of explanation (who knew?). So I'm going to give it a shot here, and all my readers can feel free to try to poke holes in it or refine it however they see fit. Maybe at the end of it, we'll all have a better idea of what it means to believe. I'm trying here to develop it with little to no Bible lingo, so bear with me if it gets a bit philosophical or esoteric.

There is a God. This is evident to anyone who looks at the universe or at his own consciousness. Many people (seemingly smart ones, at that) don't buy this, which amazes me, but I cannot explain the existence of matter in our universe or the human consciousness without an all-powerful, infinitely intelligent Creator. However, I admit that this is not the final argument by any means, but for the remainder of this discussion, I am going to assume a Creator-God who is perfect in nature, intelligence, and every other manner. Also, I think it is worthwhile to mention that I think perfectly pure nature implies perfection in every feature of nature: perfect love, since a perfect God has no room for the impurities that corrupt love (such as jealousy, insecurity, etc.), and perfect justice and righteousness. I think these two will be relatively sufficient for this discussion.

Based on these ideas, a perfect God would not create creatures that he did not love. The alternative picture, a being creating things only to destroy them out of spite or a desire to feel more powerful, does not fit with a perfect nature. Again, some smart people throughout history have disagreed with me, and so I don't presume that this argument is final, but I don't want this little essay to get too long.

If there is an infinitely powerful God who created everything we see, including us, then our only response should be one of worship of him. By worship, I don't mean a group of created, primitive humans doing chants and dances around a fire to appease the God who created them. I simply mean that we should assign worth to this being because He is the only thing worthwhile that exists. Everything we do should be with respect to this being. Doing otherwise would be worse than my Lego creations defying my nature and saying that they knew best, since I didn't really "create" them, I just put them together, and I am not a perfect creator in the first place.

However, humans don't do this. We rebel against God on every level of our existence. We try to find joy in places where it does not exist because we want to be in control. Instead of simply resting in the divine nature that created us, we want something that is impossible: to be God ourselves. We seek "pleasures" that make us feel important or sexy or powerful or rich, even though these things will pass away like dead grass and mean nothing. This basic attitude is what the world today knows as Sin. Even though God loves his creatures, part of what it means to have a perfect nature, as mentioned above, is perfect righteousness or justice. Based on this rebellion and treason that humans commit and have been committing every day since we've been around, our just punishment is the end which we've been chasing: apartness from God. We futilely try to find joy and fulfillment apart from God, and so we are banished to that state.

Fortunately for us, God, in his perfect love for us, planned a solution for humanity's rebellion: Jesus. God's nature was incarnate in human form in the person of Jesus. Jesus lived an infinitely perfect life on Earth and was subjected to the suffering and horrible death and pain that we deserve. Most importantly, he was subjected to the banishment from God that all deserve through this death. In this way, God's righteous judgment for the sins of man was poured out on the one man who lived perfectly. He then was resurrected by God, therefore overcoming the curse of sin in mortality and death. We must acknowledge our own sinfulness and our need for restoration. We must put our trust in that work to regain fellowship with our Creator, the end for which all men were created. We must spend our lives striving to participate in the divine nature by living according to it, summed up by the moral law given in the Bible (Ten Commandments, Jesus' teachings, Paul's teachings, etc.), although nothing we can do is worth anything in comparison to Jesus work -- God loves us only because Jesus' righteousness counts for ours. We should also, as a natural reaction to the mercy we have been shown, care about other people and want them to have the joy that we have, since we didn't deserve it any more than they did, and since doing so is sharing in the restoring of humanity that God is doing. The Bible is the story of God's restoration of man, culminating and centered completely around the person of Jesus. All of this was done for the glory of God in the way of our enjoyment of and participation in his nature.

Alright, I know this was really long, and I'm sure I left out some stuff. Try reading this as someone who has no idea about anything relating to Christianity. If you find yourself saying something like, "But I don't understand how that necessitates that," feel free to mention it.

8.13.2006

This is a little creepy...

I got this from Jill. Read and be amazed.

You Are Bert
Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them!
You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you
You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil
How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

8.12.2006

I'm alive

I didn't get mauled by any bears. However, I am quite glad to be sleeping on a bed again. I'm all for nature and stuff, really. The hikes we took were so much fun, and it was nice to wake up to a gorgeous lake and mountains, but I don't sleep too well on the ground, as it turns out.

Last night I played softball with Sven. He hit two inside-the-park home-runs, one of which was a grand slam, he almost made an amazing diving catch in center field (the ball popped out of his glove as he hit the ground), and he ran full speed into the fence trying to make an incredible, Willie-Mays-over-the-shoulder catch (he got his glove on it, but the collision with the fence sort of made him drop it). It was exciting, but now his knee is basically immobilized from the run in with the fence.

That's all for now. I'm planning a "Religious Musings, Pt. 2" in a post or two, but I don't feel like typing or thinking that much right now.

8.07.2006

Refusing to take advantage of modern technology for a few days

I'm going camping in the mountains in New Mexico with only a backpack. Scary. I'll be back this weekend. Unless I get mauled by a bear.

8.04.2006

Five Dollars and Rock 'n' Roll Music

So yesterday, John Spaulding, a manager at the office I work at, walks by my office door with a list of some sort in his hand, pauses, looks at the list, then walks into my office. He puts the list down on my desk and says, "Five bucks. Sign here." Seeing my confusion, he said, "When we meet our shipping deadline, Larry gives everyone a five-dollar bonus." So I signed, and he handed me a five-dollar bill and walked out of my office. I thought that was hilarious. A five-dollar bonus? I mean, I know five bucks is a lot to some people, but people with full-time jobs? I know, if I saw five dollars lying on the ground, I'd pick it up, and it will pay for lunch or something, but it just seemed very odd to go out of your way to send a manager around handing five dollars to all the employees at this company.

In other news, I played with some of the best musicians I've ever played with last night. They were all old guys who knew and played mostly classic rock and blues. We jammed for about 2 hours, playing and singing "Rocky Mountain Way" (Joe Walsh), "Drive My Car" (The Beatles), "La Grange" (ZZ Top), "All Along the Watchtower" (Hendrix/U2 version, not Dylan), some jazz-blues (or is it blues-jazz? we didn't do any free-form jazz odyssies, though, much less in front of a festival crowd) stuff we just sort of made up on the spot (no lyrics with those, clearly...we didn't "freestyle", nor did we "flow"), and much, much more. I got to sing melody on "Rocky Mountain Way" and "All Along the Watchtower" because the tacit band leader didn't know the words (he sang harmony on the chorus of "Rocky Mountain Way", it was awesome). It was probably the most fun I've ever had playing music. Some days everything just comes together: the other musicians, the style of music, your chops that day, improvisational inspiration, and a general quality of rock-and-roll. Too bad I just found them the day before I leave Sweetwater, ne'er to return. And, before the drummer showed up, I got to play drums for a while, too, which I never get to do. There are few things in this world like the camaraderie of a bunch of musicians who know their instruments jamming together, looking around at each other, encouraging each in turn to take his shot at some rocking solos or something, reveling in the beauty of the music -- I'm just glad I got to be a part of it for a little while.

8.02.2006

Religious Musings

After reading "Atlas Shrugged", I've been thinking a lot. The more I've thought about it, the thing that I think is most unbelievable about Christianity and modern "moral virtue" to someone like Ayn Rand is that it is filled with contraditions. We are human, and we have certain desires -- to be happy, to seek personal fulfillment, etc. -- but we are told to repress them in the name of self-sacrifice, which is intrinsically "good". I think we (Christians) are all guilty at propagating this misconception in one way or another. We shy from philosophical buzzwords like "Hedonism" (living life only for the sake of "pleasure" is wrong, because it is about more than that, right?) and "Egoism" (it is DEFINITELY about more than personal pleasure and "what is best for you"...seeking personal pleasure must be sinful). For some reason we have the idea that pleasure and God are mutually exclusive floating around our heads-- if we're doing the right thing, we should be miserable. However, Blaise Pascal (a Christian) said:

"All men seek happiness. There are no exceptions. However different the means they may employ, they all strive towards this goal. The will never takes the least step except to that end. This is the motive of every act of every man."

If this is true (and it seems to me like it is), then we are created with a desire for happiness. We want to be happy because our creator wants us to be happy and gave us that capacity. That is our purpose, but we look for it in the wrong places. Here is a nice passage that says all this better than I could:

"The negative ideal of Unselfishness carries with it the suggestion not primarily of securing good things for others, but of going without them ourselves, as if our abstinence and not their happiness was the important point. I do not think this is the Christian virtue of Love. The New Testament has lots to say about self-denial, but not about self-denial as an end in itself. We are told to deny ourselves and to take up our crosses in order that we may follow Christ; and nearly every description of what we shall ultimately find if we do so contains an appeal to desire. If there lurks in most modern minds the notion that to desire our own good and earnestly to hope for the enjoyment of it is a bad thing, I submit that this notion has crept in from Kant and the Stoics and is no part of the Christian faith. Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased."

C.S. Lewis - The Weight Of Glory

If this is true, we should stop selling Christianity as a moral code to be fulfilled. Even if we say differently, we often betray our motives by acting as if the measure of one's spirituality is determined by how well he or she refrains from activities that the world holds to be pleasurable (money, power, fame, sex, etc.). When we start living this way, we start to believe that these really are the best activities, and we start to secretly envy our non-believing friends for the fun lifestyle that they lead ("Jesus, why couldn't you have just waited until after college to find me so I could have had some fun?"). For those of you who have read "Atlas Shrugged", I believe it is easy to see how the "looter" ideals are only a couple steps away when this attitude becomes synonymous with "morality": envy could easily give birth to hatred, and selfish desires could easily be self-righteously masqueraded as commanding others to share with "the public" (although Rand's description is a rather superlative case). If there is indeed a perfect God who has a perfect nature, what could be more worthwhile and fulfilling than seeing that nature and striving to understand it and be apart of it? Christianity is not a journey towards self-discipline and self-control, it is a lifelong striving for personal pleasure.

Anyway, if you've gone to a small group of mine at Southcrest, you've probably heard this stuff before. However, it never ceases to amaze me how often I find myself failing to believe it.

8.01.2006

Books I've read this summer

In full:

"Chaos: Making a New Science", by James Gleick
"The Elegant Universe", "The Fabric of the Cosmos", by Brian Greene
"The Unfolding Mystery: Discovering Christ in the Old Testament", Edmund P. Clowney
"Ishmael", by Daniel Quinn
"Blue Like Jazz", "Searching for God Knows What", by Donald Miller
"Atlas Shrugged", by Ayn Rand
"Ender's Game", by Orson Scott Card
"Heart of Darkness", by Joseph Conrad
"A Severe Mercy", by Sheldon Vanauken
Genesis - II Kings, Titus (like, the Bible)

In part (half or so):

"Introduction to Quantum Mechanics", "Introduction to Elementary Particles", by David Griffiths
"A Brief History of Time", by Stephen Hawking

To be read in the next two weeks:

"The Christ of the Prophets", by O. Palmer Robertson


I'm going to miss reading when school starts. It is going to be slightly more difficult to read as much then, unfortunately.
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